Motivation 
1.) I feel like I was born a rebel since birth. I was born 20 days late…doctors thought I was male in the beginning…I roll my summer rolls the opposite way…I wrote with my left hand (until my mom made me switch hands).
2.) My parents say: education is number 1. My dad always gives me the analogy of a car as a way to explain grades and school and life to me: you don’t want a rusty engine car in the beginning, as it won’t take you far, you’ll just crash in a mountain *hand motion down table. You want a well-tuned car in the beginning that can travel in any environment *hand motion going straight. I would have to wake up every morning early, had to do homework from my dad and if I don’t do it, I have to do it when I go home along with my school homework, if I don’t do it, I get scolded. I hated math, but I loved spelling and English
3.) I hated school and homework. I remember in kindergarten we had to do an alphabet book for each letter. We were doing the letter ‘G’ and I drew all my stuff in Green..so everything would begin with Green like Green fish..Green books..etc…my teacher made me do the whole thing again and made me miss recess since she wanted it with words starting with G…
3.) I had too much energy as a kid, my parents made me do basketball to burn it off. I was a really good shooting guard.
4.) I was really artistic and creative when I was a tot…I made a guitar with rubber bands, an empty tissue box, and an empty paper towel roll. I would sing barney/sesame street songs and jam on my guitar at night when my parents were sleeping since I thought singing was a no-no in my house.
5.) I was so good in art, I got 1st place in art competitions in jr high. I beat my friend who went to art school. I was so good, the art teacher would call my house to ask if I can bring more of my art and craft during the school’s art show.
6.) Can I also say I was the director for our 8th grade play Where the Red Fern Grows. yeahhh
7.) And I made webpages and I had a domain www.mercury-myst.com and it was popular, I made layouts by myself, and I learned html, and php coding by myself. It consisted of my blog, a forum, anime stuff, and a graphic design site. Then I closed it down because of school.
8.) I wasn’t stupid in jr. high either..straight As baby! I remember the time I got only one B in History and I cried my eyes out. My history teacher recalculated and it still came out to B..that’s how I started hating history.
9.) I was also into drawing fashion back in the day…but would hide my drawings from my parents since I thought they would laugh at it and call me stupid for wanting to do art. I would like to claim I was the first one to invent the high-low dress.
10.) I had asian friends during that time, and they all hated me..since I was the teacher’s pet…you know…asians like to compete with each other early on. All of my asian friends were social loafers, made me do everything…this made me hate asians and social loafers.
11.) They hated me so much, my asian friends who went to the same high school as me ..one of them (the one who I beat at my school’s art competition) started a rumor about me in high school, but that ended quickly since no one believed her…she said I was a bitch.
12.) I earned an art scholarship during my freshman year of high school but my parents made me reject it since they said “ART WOULD NOT GIVE YOU MONEY”…if I were to accept that scholarship I would have to take two art credits each year.
13.) I wish I still had my art portfolio, but it must be in the trash somewhere or in the basement…the only remnant I have is my giraffe statue.
14.) I started hating English in high school..I hated HATED papers..I also hated theology then since that consisted of PAPERS…but my love for math/science started to grow then. If I couldn’t do art with paints and such, I’ll just do art with math and science. I was still a really good student though..first honors and I was in the Honor Program since Freshman Year.
15.) I was also interviewed in the Washington Post about colleges :)
16.) Even though I hated English I still took AP Literature and any AP I could take..I needed a distraction…
17.) I cried johns hopkins didn’t accept me. My mom called me stupid for crying. I literally locked myself in my room just wanting to die.
18.) Random Fact: My dad didn’t want me to apply to Duke because he said its all international asian people…lawls
19.) I got a scholarship at UMBC..so that’s how my fate was decided…
more to come!
- Camera Charger (If cannot find at home -_-;)
- Nikon J1 (If I can finally try one out in a store)
- A New Phone (Samsung Galaxy S4)
- New Boots (Wore my new ones religiously and now its breaking apart T_T…cheap ass boots…)
This is a video montage of my boyfriend and I. I hope you enjoy :)
We have been in a relationship for 2 years and some months, and just like any couple we do have some times in which we just want to pull each other hairs out/give other wrinkles, but we still love each other :)..we technically are not long distance anymore since I moved down to FL for school.
Please subscribe for more videos of us ^___^…we are a silly and fun couple..promise!
I thought I was a strong person, but why does it feel like recently I’ve been unhappy recently. I need to stop crying before my parents wake up. I don’t want to cry but it just comes out. I do not want to cry infront of them
how do I become happy again, hopefully ill get back to my normal self soon. time i guess
I am hoping I’ll be better before school starts
it feels good writing it down
